but one thing i'm kind of really terrified of is big snakes.

i mean huge snakes, anaconda type of snakes.

the anaconda movies suck, poor writing, such, but the snakes, the actual snakes, off in the amazon and on tv and everything really kind of scare me.

last night was probably the worst with amy.

to the point where i almost left, at 2 in the morning, to drive thirty minutes to sleep somewhere else, giving me a grand total of 5 or so hours of sleep.

but i stayed.

and we both hurt each other.

slept kind of bad because i didnt want to sleep in a certain way. then i woke up way too early to leave her to go to work.

before i left she gave me a book she thought might help me understand where she's coming from, how to make sure neither one of us don't reach that point again.

it'll be another five days before i see her again, so maybe that'll give us time to cool down a bit, think and settle down, that such.

or, you know, neither one of us could be strong enough to save the other.

or we'll just eat pudding and be happy.