and just wait, this entry gets even more exciting!

emily emailed me this morning. i had sent her a package sometime last week, before everything had happened, and she got it today.

she said she felt like she should send it back, she didn't deserve it.

i told her to keep it. or give it away, but don't send it back.

i need to call my sister, but i keep forgetting to.

she's packing up my room in my parents' house so that she could move into it. she keeps calling and asking what she should keep and what she should throw away. my favorite was "and your collection of hats?" "keep them." "okay. and your helium tank?" "keep it!" "keep it?" "yeah, it still has gas!"

i realize, now, that if someone had been listening in, just on that spot, through their baby monitors to our spicy spicy conversation, full of intrigue and... gas... they might think i was a clown or some such.

sadly, i am just a fool.

i've got one hat, a miner's hat, with a working light on it. i keep thinking i should grab it and take it to work with me.

i don't think it's powerful enough, though, for what i need it to do.

i'm going out tonight with an old employee.

i stopped by the old work yesterday and we were talking about past relationships, and how she wasn't going to go change before she met up with her date. and then she said something like "he probably won't even put on cologne, that will make me mad."

now, okay. i've never intentionally put on good smelling stuff before a date. i get myself as clean as possible, and the stuff i use smells a little, but i don't go for cologne or body sprays or anything.

is this something i should start?

i mean, with people i date, i don't ever really notice much if they're smelling... different. just if they're smelling good. and usually there's nothing better then just the way they smell.

like the days they've gone out without take a shower.

just them.

i don't know.