at least, it was after i got off from work and made it back, safely, to my house.

i sat around for a while and then, before i went to bed, i stripped on through to the other side.

and slept like that.

i havent had naked sleep in such a long time, it felt good to just be under the covers, feeling cotton against skin.

i'm struggling with some things. i don't know how to go about with this whole emily business.

i love her but it feels more and more like it's just... over.

it's been six months. six months.

i dated kim for 15 months and it was only seven months before i started dating emily.

i dated emily and it's been six months.

and it feels like i could wait forever. another ten months.

it's just so fucking hard wishing i was with her all the damn time, wanting to be able to just go somewhere and talk to her face to face like we did this summer, curled up together talking about all the stupid shit that bothers me.

but it all just makes me realize how selfish i am.

i don't know.

i want to get away.