played some beatles for her, cause it's been a long time since she's heard any.

it made her happy.

later, i called her again.

my phone kept dying on me.

once, when i was trying to properly tell her bye i caught myself saying i love you.

i think my phone died in the middle of it.

maybe she didnt hear it.

i kind of hope she didn't hear it.

last time i said it it made her sad, because i'm here.

but i said it, and i know i said it.

and i know i said it without thinking. without putting forth any effort to say it. without making sure i made sure it came out of my mouth.

it was just there.

and i dont know what to really make of it.