i was in a bad mood last night. i kept getting up and walking away from people to stop myself from snapping at them.

last night i realized that maybe i'm not nice enough for emily.

i mean, i think she believes i'm this really nice, generous person. when, in reality, i can be damn mean sometimes.

i talked to kim about it, seeing as how kim was there last night and knows me fairly well.

she said i'm being crazy.

that i am a nice, generous person.

that i'm not going to let emily down.

that i'm only mean to people who deserve it.

kim told me that she deserved me being mean to her.

i'm tired, right now, and i have to work an open to close today.

i hate working wednesdays, i think. i've only worked an open to close on a wednesday once before, but already, yeah, i don't like it.

i'm used to, during the week, being the only manager in the building.

on wednesdays at any given point there are two other managers there.

that bothers me.

especially when one of them just sits in the office doing absolutely nothing. except, oh no, she is doing "something." she's making the schedule or some other bullshit.

the other manager's not good for much, except filling in when people take a break.

but apparently i get to work with him because i'm the only one who will tell him to do anything.

and then there's the other manager who might come in at 6, i didnt check the schedule.

he doesn't do much of anything, either.

and the really scary thing is he wants to go into the military. and he's a giant goofball.

he can take orders, and as long as he's only taking the orders, he'll be fine. america will be fine. but god help us if he has to start ordering people around.

six more days until emily returns.

i have tomorrow off.

i really dont want to work today.

bah.

maybe ill get paid today.

that'll help things a little.