im just now getting home. it's just now 7 in the morning. great.

i was in a reading last night. last one to read. i got a lot of compliments, got called fabulous.

so that was a little bit of a boast.

a friend from high school was there. we talked.

she said, at one point, that her yard stick of success was whether or not she got me to laugh. if she could make me laugh, she's doing good.

she made me laugh.

then i decided to try to drive to here in the hopes of running into emily.

i ran into emily.

and then spent the night with her.

went out with her and a guy to eat. we sat there for a while just talking. i think emily has a weak spot wherein if i said please enough, she would do something small for me.

later, after the guy left, we decided to go to a friends house. which we did.

on the way there she said that she feels really immature around me. really immature. and i told her i didnt see her that way, that i dont think of her as that. and then i asked if i made her feel like that, like it was something i was doing, some way i was treating her. she said no.

said she couldnt explain it.

she said she feels goofy around me. like she does with one other person.

we stayed up, watching videos while the friend slept.

talking.

making each other laugh.

at one point she said she couldnt believe she was still up, she's never done that before. and i said, jokingly, it was because of me.

and she said yeah. it must be.

later i asked her if i should be flattered, and she said yeah, then asked me if i was. and i told her very flattered.

i have this theory, and everyone knows about it. when the friend was discussing it tonight, emily was looking at me and i said "it's worked on everyone but emily." and the friend gave me this weird questioning look and i looked back, then emily started to turn and the friend kept talking.

now i dont know whether to read that as it has worked on emily or not.

and so, in... 4 hours, man, in 4 hours im going to kind of ask about it.

and see if maybe something isnt there.

or see if its just we really amuse each other.

we shall see. we shall see.