a) when your goal is to try to flirt with someone, flirting with kim DOES NOT COUNT.

b) especially because kim is partly crazy.

c) when the moon is almost full, the sky cloudless, the time past midnight, and the road empty, if you look in the rearview mirror the interstate puts off this blue hue you've never seen before.

d) tonight a storm came in, a full thunderstorm. lightning struck, so hard and so bright you were, for a moment, blinded.

e) buy more polaroid film. you enjoy taking candid, split second photos.

f) a girl who you fell for the night you met her, who took you out that night to a park, to her house, to waffle house, is now a disc jokey on a local radio station. you have yet to find her, but you take pride in telling people a girl who's car you threw up out of in front of a school is living her dream.

g) you had a dream where kim was playing with the idea of holding your hand. stop it.

h) you're losing weight. stop it.

i) begin walking again, the small downtown that shouldnt even be called a downtown. walk it again, around twilight, afterwards, with your friends. lay in the church parking lot and talk about the stars.

j) try to be less sacreligious in your humor in the other church; no one likes a smart ass.

k) you believe in marriage more than you want to. but that doesn't mean youre not still afraid of it, afraid of trusting someoene. it's okay, no matter what you're told. or believe.

l) try to get published. you can. or, if nothing else, the rejection letters would look good in the bathroom.

m) go back to the shoe store. see if the girl behind the counter is still there. get balls and talk to her.