i think there's a huge part of you that's scared. i think a bigger part of you than you're willing to admit wants to be with me.

however, because you're scared, you're ignoring it.

and you're just not scared about us. there's a lot of things going on in your life, and i'm the one thing you think you can ignore, for now.

and maybe that's what i'm supposed to do. just let you ignore things, for now.

but it doesn't make sense to me.

if you love me, if you're in love with me as much as i think you are, and i'm in love with as much as i think i am, then why are we like this?

stop being so damn afraid.

listen to yourself, listen to what you want. not what your mom wants, what your father wants. not what i want. find out what it is you want, and grab it.

grab it, hold on to it, and believe in that.

and if just so happens to be us you want, then believe in us.