8-25-02
- 4 32 pm the people of my family are quiet, when it comes to the important things. i was the third pregnancy for my mom. the first two ended in miscarriage. in the days before i was told that i couldn't hug my mom, i was told that i was special, because i was the one who finally made my mom and my dad a family. my mom and i don't talk. for various reasons. mainly it's my fault. i can't forgive, i can't forget. i didn't know she had taken up smoking again, until three months after. i was the last one to know. i hope, though, that when the results come back from her ultrasound, they'll let me know. |