i am tired, and other things.

i got about 2 hours of sleep last night.

what time wasnt spent sleeping was spent with kim.

we watched a movie, such and such, i fell asleep at 2 or 3. woke up a little after that, because kim had sat up in bed.

she couldnt sleep.

we moved to the floor, she told me to sleep. i told her no.

we started talking.

which led to and fro and to and fro and bam, she wants to date other people, and there's this guy she's "kinda liked" since last year.

so we talked about that till 8 30.

she loves me too much, doesnt want to mess up what we've got. she won't date other people.

she cried.

told me she feels horrible. that she already messed things up between us.

i didnt cry. but barely. cause im a damn wuss.

long story short, we're still together.

im confused about some things.

she told me she was talking with her best friend about how you know you're with someone because you really want to be with them or whether you're with them because you want to be good friends.

she wasnt sure how that applied to her. with us.

if i was a great person, i would tell her to go date other people. because she needs the experience.

but im not a great person. i would be jealous of whoever she was with. i dont want to imagine her kissing someone else.

she held onto me so tightly. so tightly.

but eventually, she's got to let go, eh.