1-23-02
- 10 56 am ive spent a good part of my morning thinking about my future. soon, sooner than back a few years ago, at least, im going to have to make some serious decisions. i know what i want and what i want to do. right now, at least, i have plans that i'd like to go through with. but i've realized, today, thats there's only a certain extent i can think about my future. up to maybe three years, i can set myself on a path with a goal. after that, i cant figure anything out, because there are too many what ifs. what if im still with kim. what if i need to go somewhere else to follow through with what i want to do. what if i become a manager. what if this and what if that. and as unsteady, ungrounded as that has left me, it's still great. because i cant plan my future without knowing if its our future. and if its our future, then i cant plan it without her. |