well, those are the two things i have to clean.

and my fingernails. they're kind of dirty.

i did shopping today. got buddy holly, beatles (abbey road), eels, and tenacious d.

well spent money right there.

been a rough couple of days for kim, which translates into a hard couple of days for me.

tonight i went to her work, to see her. but she couldnt have a break, least for a while. so i sat outside for bout an hour and a half waiting. went and got her supper and chap stick, then she got a break, so we went to my car. and she ate. then cried.

you cant properly hug someone in a car.

her break was over, i came back around 930, she was coming up, i picked her up.

parked and got in the back with her. she fell asleep on me for about ten minutes.

it was really nice and good and we both needed it.

she woke up and i asked how she was, and she said better.

i want to be superman. i want to be an angel, a hero, spiderman, fighting the good fight, tamed for only a few.

i want to make things good for her.

i want to protect her.

even though some think i shouldnt.

but its hard to see her hurting and knowing all i can give her is ten minutes of peace, when i want to give her many more.