7-14-01
- 9 28 am early early this morning, before the sun came up, the girl got on. for seven minutes we talked, then she went to sleep. i checked her away message. she had written wake me up if im not awake by 6 45 am. not to anyone in particular. just a little note to ask for help. i thought. to myself. wake up. i dare you. wake up and see if she is still asleep by then. not believing i would. and not going as far as setting an alarm. but i woke up. and i thought it was 8 am. mainly because i have really bad eye sight. i rolled over to the laptop. saw it was actually 6 am. which would be 7 am, her time. which meant she should have been awake. i signed on. checked her away message. still asleep. i debated for a minute. i was still asleep. partly. i dont know, really, why i debated. maybe because i know she needed the sleep. in the end i went upstairs. got the phone. called her. let it ring twice. hung up. i watched her away message. not on my name. didn't want to talk to her. or let her know i was awake. because she would have fussed at me. called her again, let it ring twice. i dont know if she picked up that time. i think she might have. hung up. her away message went away. another one came up after a moment. thanking whoever woke her up. i am a mysterious angel in the early morning. and i am still wondering why i did not talk to her. |