6-30-01
- 10 26 pm sadly, ive almost learned to not really get my hopes up. looks like, after all, i wont be going to florida. so. i really don't want to talk about it right now, because i dont know, exactly, what is going on. if or if no. i washed my dog today. shirtless and everything. uh, i was shirtless. the dog was too, but i thought that was pretty much a given. but when i wash the dog, its an event. because i have to carry this 17 year old border collie mutt up two different flight of stairs, set him in the tub, and wash him. and he's good about it, once i get him settled. except i cant move him, so i have to get in the tub with him. so i go in barely clothed. i trimmed his hair, after i was done. cause im so good to my dogs and all, right. damn. im just. all sadly heartbroken, even though i probably shouldnt be, right? because its not like i had already bought the tickets, and its not like shes told me it really is impossible, and theres still maybe hope. all depending. just. dammit. i hate this. fuck. going to go. and read. always with the book. |