5-20-01
- 11 14 am i learned a lot this past week. going through four states will do that to you, i believe. i left saturday, so i missed mothers day. which means i also missed decoration day. i think that is what it is called. where we go out to the graveyard and make sure things are good and replace flowers and a preacher preachs. this is the first time in eight years i've missed it. called my mom, after church. church was amazing. i'm not religious, not a christian or such, but we went. this methiodist church, all black, in the deep south. they really got into it, the preacher almost cried. i almost cried. women are beautiful. i was told, thursday night, that i was open but hesitant. that i had this ability to be really open and sharing, but then i could close it off quickly, and become distant. that my greatest gift was compassion. and my writing. that i was creative and eccentric. that i had matured a lot in this past year. i write this not to impress you, but to remember it myself. that there are people out there who believe this about me. i need to call barbara. let her know i am back in town. i'm waiting for kat to call me, so i know when i can see her next. i will go see two good friends graduate today. i will go with my sister, because these friends are the kind that adopt younger sisters. they adopted her, and a part of me is eased because of this. i need to talk to the girl, above all. i need to find jenai. i need to find a job. i'm smiling, yall. this past week has been amazing for me. however, i have now made a promise. whenever i leave town, whenever it comes i cant talk to the girl through email or whatever, i will call her. so much happened to her this past week, and i was not there for her. i was not there. |