physically, its bad, i guess. i can sort of feel the infection down my throat to the middle of my chest.

my throats sore and every now and then it feels like ive gotten a whiff of smoke.

my lower back hurts off and on, but not as bad as yesterday.

temp's staying in the 99s.

mainly its mental.

im at the parents house now.

i really dont want to be here.

i hate being here sometimes.

i can't really explain it. or i can, and i just don't want to.

i'm sick and fucking tired of having to live under them. but i'm too good of a kid to act out enough to get the freedom.

i cant keep doing this to myself.

fuck.

the chest is heavy.

god damn im crying. i need to go.