hell say are you married well say no man but you can do the job when youre in town.

later on well conspire as we dream by the fire to face unafraid the plans that we made walking in a winters wonderland.

thank you thank you.

i will share a secret. all week i havent been able to sleep well. it takes me about an hour to shut down and go to sleep. and then im waking up. and its not fun.

i must work tomorrow. 10 am. i am not looking forward to it. hopefully the cold will make people stay away and i shall be able to nod off.

an indirect boss of mine is from sweden. i think this is a sign.

ive got to call my parents tomorrow before work. ill be waking the mom up, and possibly the sister, but ah it must be done.

or maybe i could wait till lunch.

yeah, i can wait till lunch.

so ill wait till lunch.

and ive also got other stuff i MUST do before wednesday. get my ass in gear yo.

this afternoon i was sick. i didnt want to get out of bed. i talked to martine, she told me to stay, so i stayed. slept for about an hour. maybe two. the knot in my stomach left.

god. tomorrow it will be about ten before i get home. before i get to bed. and i dont know if i like that. but theres something i must do. argh. ill take a damn nap inbetween it all.

she talks too much yo. i understand why, i understand its because she feels slightly insecure but still. i just fade away and nod every once in a while. and i hate that.

indeed.