itd be so much easier if, instead, i could go up to whoever would have read whatever i wrote and used my hands.

show the shape im trying to impart, touch them this or that way to get the feeling across.

sometimes the only way to share that make your eyes roll to the back of your head and knees buckle feeling is to make someone feel that, you know?

but ive got to fight through that. and fight through that i will.

my alarm didnt go off this morning. i didnt set it, apparently.

yet i still managed to be early. i kick ass.

my blood has just run cold my angel is the centerfold nanananana.

ive got lunch with a friend, cause yeah everyone wants a little crayon time and who am i one to sternly say "NO!" while brandishing a rolled up newspaper?

nope. i am not one to do all that.

after lunch i shall return to not my abode nor my casa yet the place that holds me as if i were a moth who was dying because i flew too close too long into that exposed light in its giant cupped hands.

and in this place i shall type for at most two and a half hours.

then i will go eat a free dinner. and depending on where i stand, work wise, will depend on where i stand with work.

what i said last night: "i remember how to spell principals cause, you know, every principal should be, in the end, a pal. get it? princiPAL. oohhhaha. wipe the tear from my eye. woo."

followed soon by: "i need sleep."

and i didnt get to sleep until... 3 in the morning. but im glad, because i learned a little more about martine.

think about it. little things have impacted my life. have made me become this way. and maybe, just maybe, instead of becoming friends with her, thereby eventually meeting the girl, i would have ignored her. then i would never have met the girl.

and i would probably be a bitter person right now, if not really fucked up.

and i wouldnt have done this. this thing. and i wouldnt have met you or you or you.

and your life would have been different than it is now.

and hence someone elses life wouldve been different.

connections are amazing things yo.

and now i go to uh meditate or some such. yeah.

have a good day yall.