god dammit.

thatll teach me eh.

but not really.

in less than an hour im sposed to be somewhere. BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE.

no, thats a lie. i have two ideas where i'm sposed to be. two buildings. in the building, well, hell, who knows.

and i havent had lunch nor do i know when i will have lunch.

so heres my plan cause im all about planning things out, but not really:

i will end this soon. hopefully read a little email between then and now. then i will leave, get something to eat, and wander to one building and see if i get any clues as to where i'm really sposed to be.

then, after i do whatever im doing where ever im doing it, i'm going to eat a second lunch and take a nap.

yessah.

i'm going to share something now:

i was once a damn good double dutcher. as in the jump ropes. the group i was with even made it to a few competitions.

ok, no, that was a damn lie.

im not the best jump roper. during pe in elementary school i was better at moving like animals. i could trot better than anyone buddy.

heh, no, i was an average trotter. oh the shame.

im not fast, nor can i endure. well, not anymore, i used to be able to endure, and if i wanted to buddy you can bet your ass that i would push myself beyond normal limits.

i did, however, and still do, have amazing hand eye coordination.

hand feet, nope, none of that. thats why im secretly drawn to soccer players. i find it intriguing how they automatically go to using their feet rather than my approach, which is using my hands.

yeah i use my hands. ooh la la.

i was taking a shower the other day and i reached over to turn the water on. someone had left that little thing up that makes the water come out of the shower head instead of the faucet and i was quite surprised by the fastness... or quickness, if you want to use the proper word... of my reaction. before my back was even touched by, say, three rows of drops i had banged the shower off, so the faucet was on.

and i thought "its never good to be wet before you expect it."

and ill let yalls mind run with that.

im considerably more awake right now than i should be.

theres a mixture of natural things going on outside.

i can see an orange tree. i can see a green tree. i can see a pale green tree. i can see dark gray gravy storm clouds. i can see sunlight streaming through.

duality. its a good thing.