"to glance up and see a great novelist uttering a story of rare, sweet wit and grace is to feel that our heart has found its home."

ive felt that before. its nice.

houston do you hear me ground control can you feel me need permission to land.

i moved ten bales of hay this evening, around ten pm. what a crazy life i do lead.

before that i was playing pool. god damn i was hitting some nice shots. i was surprising myself.

and the guy i was playing with.

it was a lucky night for me.

but not a lucky lucky night if you know what i mean and i think you do cause your minds always in the gutter.

for shame.

i saw a bare back tonight. it was damn near perfect. the way the skin was pulled over the muscles and the way the muscles just glowed with strength and fluidity.

fluid-ity.

what a word.

the whole back-shoulders-neck regions just makes me fall to the ground. i can feel myself slipping down the two hollow legs i find out i have in just that moment and out i pour through the tops of my shoes and ooooh.

and the curves. the curves of the side, from the side. the little gentle rise here and then that smooth bam between here and here.

i was thinking about some things tonight in the car with them.

submissing. not in the dom/sub sense, but in the idea of... trusting someone that much, of believing in someone that much that you just collapse all those walls you built and close your eyes and let her or him or whatever be your exoskeleton... that's got to be a great feeling.

i dont believe in love at first sight. not for me, at least. for me its... i look up and all of a sudden theres a different light shining, all of a sudden they say this or that and boom.

boom indeed.

and i dont expect clashes and bangs and zips. maybe a slow easing into like a lake on a summer day. slipping in off the dock. barely making ripples, but displacing the water all the same. being one and being separate at the same time.

surrounded by but at the same time able to float on.

but i also think that when it happens itll be completely not what i expect.

so all these thoughts, feelings, i dont put much stock in because whatever happen will be much much greater than that.

and ill submit. ill break and bend and loosen and close my eyes.

yes indeed.

you got no love: youre with the wrong man. its time to move your body.

oh robbie williams how you speak the truth.

preach on brother.