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- 2 32 pm i have less than thirty minutes to get my ass to work, as well as the various other body parts that adorn me, and what am i doing? writing. i saw another butterfly today. the count has now risen to 4. i need to finish up the tape im making. got one side done and im not even past the third cd. ive got... 3 more to go. time to tell you about my dream: i was driving, by myself, up the big road in the hometown. i was going to my dad's apartment, you see. in actuality my parents are still together, happy for the main part. but, yes, i was going to my dad's apartment, from my mom's, and i was speeding. i see up at the intersection the light's yellow, but i know i have too much speed to stop in time, so i switch lanes, to the right lane, so i could take the yield turn onto the other road. as i hit the brakes slightly to get in the other lane the car speeds up. i realize im in trouble. i take the turn too fast, i hit the break, makes the car go a little faster, i swing out to the other lane, on coming traffic. i close my eyes. i think, yeah, i knew this was going to happen. maybe it wont be so bad. and another car hits me head on. it goes silent. i cant feel anything. i see a picture of my dad. i open my eyes and the car is in mid air. i close them again. i feel, more than hear, and see inside more than visual actualness, the car going through the window and such of the ihop. and im alright. at least, my mind is, and i have no real pain. and all the while all the while im thinking yeah this is how it was supposed to happen. and im alright. then i woke up. |