yes, indeedy do, i do.

i saw a little tap dancing thing tonight. and i bet you a million gazillion dollars you could not guess what they tap danced to.

play that funky music white boy.

i swear to you on the grave of me that they did this.

frickin frackin brickin brackin, i left my damn book there... eh, alright.

im in a good mood.

odd enough.

all day its been switchin in and out between good and nothing.

i refuse to have a bad day, you see. no one i know or care for died. im still walking. i laugh. hence, a good day.

there were moments when i heard "sometimes i feel like crayon wants something different from me. that i cant give."

and yeah.

but then, you know, im damn happy that even though shes gotten this feeling in the past, and will probably continue to get it, shes still as strong a friend to me as she has been.

and the good. man, i laughed so hard i had to drop to the floor to stop the hurting.

the good kind of laugh yo.

a laugh long in coming.

and i spent some time with jen tonight.

and, by the by, the next jennifer i meet will be called paul. i know way too many jennifers and not enough pauls.

jen's a great kid. of course, i say this because we have the same kind of mind set.

and jan and joey were around for a little bit, and man, i feel bad for joey.

he has a hint of whats coming, but im not sure to what extent.

see, joey fell hard and fast for jan.

and jan let him. and i honestly thought there was something there.

nope.

ive heard her say one too many times that she's not in the mood for a relationship. she likes joey but doesnt LIKE joey.

and then, ten minutes later, she lets him hang all over her and cuddles up with him and does some major ass flirting.

if i was in his position, honestly, i would end up being pissed at her.

but she wont tell him anything.

my friend is engaged to be married in november. she's not ready for marriage.

hell, no one knows if she's really engaged.

i love the friend and everything, but the thought of her having children, right now, scares me.

so. yes.

and i miss the girl like hell right now, i want to talk to her and tell her about the day and just feel her presence. the laughter and "ass" calling and such.

even though its 12 20 am, i think im gonna take a shower. but not in the dark. not here. not yet.

you know you're home when you can turn around, in the dark, and hit the faucet thing to turn the water off. with your foot.

that, my fine people, is home.