so they were trying to get me to say stuff about her.

its kind of odd. having that truth out there. and because this friend knows, i'm not sure who she's told.

and, hence, it could get back to the girl.

and, hence, im now stuck.

i would like to believe that this friend will keep it to herself, but its mildly doubtful.

she's part of a trio that discusses things about me, you see.

and the third kid in this trio is who i'm really worried about.

she might take it upon herself to do something.

but we've flirted around the idea, the girl and i, lately, what with her going to damn boston.

flirted around meaning that she knows ive got stuff to say and im not sure if she knows exactly what it is.

but i think she does.

and i dont know if she realizes its bout her.

cause she knows ive fallen for someone.

blah blah blah blah.

and now that i think about that, i dont know if i want that holding her when shes in boston. i dont want to say something and then have her go away and weigh on her where i cant be there to talk about it, much less actually date her.

she's young. she's funny. she's smart. she's beautiful.

she got hit on last night by some guy at a rice necklace stand.

she's going to make someone damn lucky one day.

arrrrrghhhhhhh.

i spent the night at her house not too long ago.

woke up singing.

thats never happened before.

i gotta depart, a friend is here and getting antsy to do stuff in this god forsaken town.

oh, yes, by the way, im now a proud member of the hollywood video family.