i want a dog. and theres really no reason why i couldn't have gotten one say two years ago.

but i didnt.

and i cant right now.

on altogether different note: i have told people before that i loved them.

i have never seriously told anyone i was in love with them.

now lets look at that. lets see why i havent looked anyone in the eye and said "i'm in love you, you one eyed person you"

it's not the love part that scares me. thats been proven by telling people i love them.

its the "in".

look at it. let's break it down, shall we? i and n. it's its own little sentence, right there. i in. and yes in pops up again. disect it more, it becomes i i in. i i i in.

you could go on forever and it would be always i in. its infinite.

see? infinite even starts with in.

infinite scares me.

now we understand why its hard to say "in love" for me.

now all thats left to is find another way of saying it.

"i'm enjoying being around you a whole lot".

doesnt work, enjoying, en, too close to in.

"i dont want to be the one to take care of your pets while youre out of town. i want to be out of town with you."

that works.

"i can think of nothing else that i want more out of life than to wake up earlier than the alarm to watch you sleep."

"i would wake up earlier than the alarm for you."

ohhh no, i know: "i would fight you for the last pudding cup, but i wouldn't use my teeth."

there we go.