i got to bed about 4 am due to talking.

and not "what do you want to do tonight?" "i dont know. what do you want to do?" "eh."

this was some serious talking. and im not sure where to go from here.

my friend revealed to me she cuts herself. if she cant find razors, she burns herself. she hasnt been doing it often for a while. but she does it.

and last night she was looking for her razors.

im hoping we (there were four of us total together)talked with her long enough that when she left she was too tired to do anything and just went to bed.

i dont know yet.

and thats just a fraction of we talked about.

we discussed coming out.

we discussed homophobia.

we discussed if life was worth living.

and i have age on all of them. give or take at least three years. so im the old wizened one.

and truth be told im fumbling around with life.

but ive been where they are, in my own way. in my own way, im still dealing with what they're beginning to come into.

but how do you tell someone not to harm themselves?

how do you help them?