A) I don't want her friends in my house until it is no longer my house. And by that, I mean until I no longer sleep on the couch but on a bed somewhere else.
B) I'm going to miss the dog. It's its own little heart break.
C) I have started a pro/con moving list. So far, the only reason I have for staying is I just got promoted.
D) I will never marry because divorcing will kill me.
E) Kim, quite possibly the worst (at the very end)and hardest relationship I've ever had, has been my longest.
F) I am a good person.
G) Except when I am an asshole.
H) I don't know how to tell my mom.
I) I wish I had aim so I could talk to some people I don't have phone numbers for.
J) I am the thing that most stresses people out. All relationships (minus one) end with "I just have a lot to do right now and I need to focus on other things."
K) Which really means "you're the one thing I don't need in my life."
J) That minus one relationship ended with "you're too much to handle." Which I was.
L) But I've grown.
M) I think.
N) Maybe not.
O) I was really gung-ho about fixing our relationship. I came back refresh, happy. I missed the hell out of her.
P) That first night back (Monday) I said "Tomorrow can you stay home after work?" and she said "All night?"
O) Thusly I am rebuked.
Q) She's using religion as a reason for us breaking up. She never cared enough to ask me, but on my hurricane trip I had an experience. And I'll leave it at that.
R) I should have known it would end like this when she wasn't there when I had surgery in December.
S) When I was home recovering she was partying.
T) But also studying.
U) So really, it is my fault.
V) Because I did not say "Hey. Stay with me."
W) I'm ending this list.

So much shit, so much.