but today, today was good.

i spent the last few days in birmingham, just being with her.

today we ended up at the botanical gardens, walking around, watching this guy play with his girlfriend's kid, watching the fish in the mini-lake, the turtles.

then i had to leave, and that was really awkward because of the spot we were in.

she goes to a highly religious private university and if our actions were deemed inappropriate she could get kicked out.

i couldn't properly say goodbye, which led us into this discussion about her choices she could make.

which, of course, on my three hour drive back, led me to think of the choices i could make, could have made.

and you think maybe things should've been different. maybe i should've been there instead of here, maybe i should've gone after her just a little stronger, maybe not.

hell, i dont know.

on a side note, i saw a car lot that said "buy her, pay here" and it made me giggle because, you know, prostituion, it's humor for the family.

also, amy has a big problem with me calling her choco-taco, but i don't know why.

and she won't really explain why.