and i asked "we? you and me?"

because i was unsure if she was talking to someone who was around her right then or not.

she said "yeah, us."

and i said "what, when you get back?"

and she said "yes."

i'm sure she thought that i was abnormally slow on the uptake right then, but that wasn't quite it.

what it was, and i guess still is, is that it kind of threw me off that she was making plans for us. even as just friends, it's kind of odd. before she came back for the winter we had made plans, a couple of them, none of which ever came through because she was really stressed and spending more time with other people and i only got to see her once.

so i don't really know what makes her think this summer will be any different. there's three months instead of three weeks, which i guess is a start, but this is the last summer she'll be spending with her best friend so i expect fully to be pushed into the background.

and yet to still be calling her every day and talking for at least thirty minutes about nothing.

i told her, last night, that it's kind of weird.

she asked "why?"

and i said "well, i don't know. a lot could change in four months, you may not like me by then."

and she said "oh shut up, just stop it."

the thing is, i wear on everyones nerves, i'm just waiting for her to get fed up with me.