talked about my sister's recent kind of dumping by kim's ex boyfriend.

talked about a mutual friend of ours (but more friend to me than her) coming up engagement.

her boyfriend asked her parents for her hand in marriage. i told emily that and emily started laughing and said "that's southern."

this is the same friend who, when emily came into the picture and i started liking her but was really unsure about things, she's the one i kind of talked to about it. she told me "you know, i was thinking about it," one day, and said "if you and her were to date, you would make a great couple because you're both... weird in the same way, it would be wonderful."

and it was wonderful, i suppose.

i'm going out with this friend today, out to lunch, i dont know if her boyfriend will be there or not.

i'm sure will talk about that and emily some.

at one point last night emily and i were talkin and i said "so you've pretty much got it settled in your mind that nothing will ever happen between us again, huh?"

and she said "well... never's a really long time."

and i said "so that's a yes."

"no. just not any time soon."

"define soon."

"i don't know... within a year."

"a year as in may or december?"

"december."

"okay. and so do you still have feelings for me."

"this isn't really good for getting over it is it?"

"well, no."

"then i'm not going to answer."

which, of course, i took to mean she still does have feelings.

before all of this we were talking and i was making her laugh by reminding her of the stupid things i did and asking her why she put up with me. i acted like i was 3 sometimes, running off, falling off of things, climbing.

and she laughed over the phone. it made me smile. it made me miss being with her and doing stupid things that she put up with, like shutting the car door so my foot got stuck between the door and the chair and i couldn't move.

i told her i wish i was there with her. and she said yeah. "we would have fun," she said.

it's four months until she comes back. eleven until soon is over.