and while this, in and of itself, isn't that impressive, seeing as how i tend to dream almost every night and i tend to remember most of them, i think i should arrive at the reason of me mentioning this dream.

pretty much, it was a sex dream.

and, you know, nothing big or anything, i've had sex dreams before and i'm sure i'll have them again seeing as how i have hormones and they're all a flame lately.

but in this dream, i kissed this person to show them i was serious, or what not, and as i was kissing them i thought, "how am i going to explain this to emily?"

maybe, at this point in time, i should mention that it wasn't a sex dream as in erotic or what have you. it was a sex dream as in i was in a bad situation and had to give up sex to get out of it. so i wasn't too into it.

which is a horrible, horrible sex dream, by the way. it's a waste. if you're going to dream about sex, it should be like it is when you're awake. mutually fun.

i dismissed the kissing because i knew emily would understand i was only doing it to get away, but then, for some reason, we moved into the shower.

we didn't turn the shower on or anything, we were just standing in the tub, fully clothed, shoes on and everything.

i did something, i don't remember what, and the person moaned and i thought "it's better with emily."

and i got really frustrated right then, in my dream.

there i was, getting it on, and it was a waste. i wasn't getting anything out of it, i could be having more fun with emily, she turns me on a hell of a lot more than i was turned on right then.

i heard this moan next to my ear and i got angry that i wasn't with her, that i had put myself in this situation, and i kind of punched the shower wall.

not hard enough to distract who i was with. just hard enough to get out some frustration.

later on, i woke up.

frustrated.

she's the one i want to be with tonight.

the one i want hear moaning next to my ear.

i want her hands on my shoulder blades, feeling my ribs, moving into the dip down the middle of my back.