i'm picking her up from work and we're going out to eat at her favorite restuarant.

now, we both have admitted we really like each others company. we've both said that we want to spend a lot of time with each other this summer.

we both really enjoy food, and there are restuarants we want to take each other.

so i finally asked her, today, when she wanted to go. we worked out wednesday as a good day.

neither one of us called this a date.

as far as we're saying to each other, and to other people if they ask, we're just eating together. because i love mexician and she loves this mexician restuarant.

ah, it was great, too:

a customer was talking with her, and then randomly said (and this is the first part of the conversation i overheard) "i dont know if anyone's ever told you this before, but you look like nicole kidman."

and emily just started grinning and calling her her favorite customer ever.

by this time i was watching her, because she was just smiling and being herself.

next customer comes up, having overheard the other conversation and seen emilys reaction to it. said "she's right, you know. you do look like her."

and emily collapsed onto the counter and said "i'm going to start crying now."

and i just laughed at her.

to me she's always just looked like emily. never bothered thinking or comparing her to anyone else.

but once they said that, and once i collapsed on the couch to rest a little, i looked at her.

and yeah, i see it.

also. also also also:

i worked 16 hours yesterday, 13 today.

i got a call, friday, about a job offering. today she called me again. told her that i didnt think i would fit in (cause im not the type) and she said that i would, because there's no other employees, really.

so im thinking of taking up a second job.

working some odd... 60 hours a week.

with two free days.

but i dont know if two free days are enough free days to spend with emily, if i get the chance.

its probably my bed time.

i was going to drive to my apartment tonight, but there was a tornado about twenty minutes from where it is. so i decided instead of trying to drive through all that, i'd play it safe and stay here.

and im really kind of hoping that tomorrow is bad too, so i have another reason to stay here. and not drive back.

i do but i dont and ive made plans here and there and im torn.

we'll see.