for the first few days of october, the date will be a palindrome!

10-1-01, 10-2-01, 10-3-01!

oh, if only my name was a palindrome, but alas, it is not.

to recover from this depressing blow, i will open the window, because it feels amazing outside. (and i want people to be able to see me when i dance around nakedly. otherwise, you know, its just no fun.)

i am in a really good mood right now.

mayhap it is because last night i was talking to kim and she said "i really don't want to be here." and i didnt know if she meant there at her house or there awake because maybe she felt bad or what, so i asked "where do you want to be?"

"with you."

and, get this: she means it.

however, i had a bad dream. i submitted, which was the worst part, but then i got angry. mad and everything.

so i took the book and threw it across the yard. into the not high but not fresh mowed grass that had just been rained on.

it sunk and couldn't be seen. and i knew i would get in trouble for that, and i was worried.

but part of me didnt care.

so i walked into the grass, dressed in a blue shirt and blue jeans, and laid there.

face down.

face pressed into dirt.

feeling the grass under my belly and along my arms.

i woke up as i was laying there.

then i realized i still had another hour to sleep.

so i slept.

yup.

now im going to go do something else.