it hit me all of a sudden.

we were stopped. in this parking lot. so i could let her drive the van. because she's never driven a van before.

after the cops left, after deciding we weren't in a stolen van, i was sick.

near to puking.

it was bad.

i told her she had to drive.

she began to freak.

thought i was just pushing her.

but no.

so she drove.

until i felt better. and because we couldnt find an open place so i could find a bathroom and throw up.

i didnt want to throw up around her, you see.

after that, i drove her home.

i feel ok, now.

there is iffyness in me.

but not like it was at the apex.

i really havent been writing, here. there are reasons behind that. things are changing at work, and they're pushing me to test me.

things are going to get worse tuesday.

damn.