the girl got one yesterday.

wrote her an email late at night, after i had been rehashing all this old family shit with another friend. so yeah, it wasn't the happiest of emails. no picnicing bears and such.

at one point i said "we're not communicating like we used to be able to. and i want to talk about that. theres been misunderstandings and hurt. and i want to talk about that."

and i sent it.

i woke up, cause i went to sleep after i sent it... wait, no, that's a lie. it took me about two hours to finally go to sleep.

but she emailed me back.

"i want to talk to you right now, don't want to just type into a blank email. so i'll wait."

so sometime soon we're going to talk. and we've been needing to full out talk for months now.

last night, too, i was talking to a friend. we were just sitting around at one point. i started talking.

"you know, there are very few things in my life i have no regrets about."

"yeah?"

"yeah."

"like?"

"letting the girl and you into my life. going to the high school i went to."

"really?"

"yeah."

and i didnt just say that because she was there and i was talking to her. i really meant it. sure, there were times she pissed the hell out of me because she wouldnt let things die, but i know she was doing it because she wanted to be there with me, to help me out.

i just ate a brownie.

and now im going to go drink something.