at 3 i got up and handled the barking and the cat getting loose and mayhem mayhem mayhem. but i did not injure myself.

7 am was a different story. i got up, took about two steps, and fell right into the wall next to my bed.

which, in itself, wouldnt have been too bad, except my cd rack was right there, too.

i stood back up and went on. made the loop around my bed and right before i got the door i fell again. to my left. into the bed.

which wasn't bad, because it is the bed.

handled the barking again, went back to bed, slept for maybe thirty minutes, woke back up to let the dog back in, fell back asleep.

for about two hours.

finally gave up the fight.

fixed myself a bowl of cocoa pebbles. but thats neither here nor there.

its time for lunch. pizza.

im on a roll now ive gotta know how this dream ends.

had a dream, yo.

i was with a guy, we were detectives or something, up on the second floor of a hotel by the ocean. we were looking into this one room, where something upstairs had dripped down into that bathroom.

knew it was blood because it was that dark color, because there had been killings before in that hotel and we were looking for the bodies, for the killer.

we went up to the third floor, to the room above that room, and i just got really weak and weepy and fell against the wall and slid to the floor as my partner looked into the bathroom. he said "nothings here."

"no. its the closet. god the closet. i remember now. in the future, its the future, and there, in the closet."

and it was the future. i had a memory of the future, of the closet, of everything, and my partner didnt laugh at me. my partner understood.

i looked out the window, to the sea, to the sea rising and falling and boats and it was so blue and my partner opened the closet door and there it was.

later, in another dream, we were on this remote island. a small one engine plane was flying above, passing this little sort of raised dip in the ground (if you were here i could show you with my hands, but youre not here, so im sorry if youre not picturing it right because of my words.) and dropping these round stone things.

the point was to get the stone into the dip. and if you could do that, you were blessed. you were something, at least. ruler of the island a la sword in the stone, or something along those lines.

i wouldnt try. because i knew the outcome.

then, in another dream... yeah, i have multiple dreams, by the way... i flew. until i saw raven, then i dropped to the ground and talked with her in her car.

look at the stars, look how they shine for you. and everything you do. yeah they were all yellow.
i came along. i wrote a song for you. and all the things you do. and it was called yellow.
so then i took my turn. what a thing to've done. and it was all yellow.
your skin oh yeah your skin and bones turning to something beautiful. you know you know i love you so.
you know i love you so.
i swam across i jumped across for you. oh what a thing to do. cause you were all yellow.
i drew a line i drew a line for you. oh what a thing to do. it was all yellow.
your skin oh yeah your skin and bones turning to something beautiful. you know for you i'd bleed myself dry.
for you i'd bleed myself dry.
its true. look how they shine for you.
look at the stars. look how they shine for you. and all the things you do.

thats some yellow for you. by coldplay.