"then i was on a barge, about to sail the seas, patrol the waters, look for the bad guys, but i was leaving behind someone. and it killed me to do that, but i couldn't stay. i knew that i belonged out there, that the only way id fulfill any purpose in my life was if i did what i was good at. catching the bad guys, i spose. but there, on land, was what i had dreamed of for the longest time."

and

"but now i sit here, heavy lidded, wondering. if i was really put into that situation, if i had to choose between doing what i was meant to do, or going after someone who was damn important to me, im not sure which one id choose."

yeah.

i would hope that i would be strong enough to do what i was meant to do, even if that meant leaving behind someone who was important.

but i dont know if i could do that. i would hope that the person would be included with whatever i was meant to do.

watched the titan jaugar game. del greco, man, i feel you.

i need to eat some potato skins sometime soon. they're great things.

as you can tell, im hungry. so im going to go eat. yes. yes yes yes yes.

and maybe ill calm down a bit.