o... is for the only one... i see

v... is very very... extra-ordinary.

e... is even more than... anyone that you adore

yeah, im in that mood. that swinging hip lounge singer mood.

that cool smooth sauve too much sugar in your tea but its still damn tasty mood.

that if i were a frog, i would be a french frog mood.

oui-bit.

i could saunter (not strut. never strutting, cause then i just look like a big dork.) right up to just about anyone and make them smile with their eyes.

listen:

we kept swerving eye paths together and sometimes i had a smile sometimes she had a smile and i knew know feel theres no crane and then we were walking, her in front of me, and i noticed her rainbow brite patch and her powerpuff girl key chain just... there... and we walked, her in front of me.

and i didnt say hi.

listen:

she says she misses me. she says this again and again. she says she misses me. i know this. i know it by the way i want her to be driving the car. by the way i want to wake up to her still sleeping across from me.

i mean, i miss her this much. hence, because i am crayon, she's got to miss me either as much or more than i do her.

cause ive got a small ego, you see.

modest and such.

yup.

listen:

i had a dream. and in this dream i was told to refer back to another dream i had, one long long ago. one i had forgotten about. but i recalled it, right away, in the dream, and now, as im awake (yes, i am writing this as im awake. what a shame eh.) i can still recall the dream within a dream. the trains and the little mountain and the clear cold water i never went into but saw.

the first dream, the one that held the dream within it, was in a mall. i didnt buy anything. i just walked around and there, there was this or that kid that i know or knew. so i followed them around. then i got on an elevator. and the elevator was... not like other elevators in my dreams. this one was almost...

sensual in its enclosing. the space was small but not uncomfortable.

i had a good feeling about it.

love is more than just a game... for two...

listen:

i talked to jen today. first time since friday. talked to jan, as well. seems like they did forget about me, as they left. but once in the car they remembered, and wanted to come back for me, but... didnt.

and jen didnt say anything when they realized i was missing.

but we're all going to a concert soon.

i dont know how thatll work. if i'll just meet them there or what exactly. but thats a ways off and we'll burn that bridge when we get off it.

cause burning it when we're on it will be just a bit on the crazy side, you see.