strip mall... strangers with candy... league of gentlemen... upright citizens brigrade.

do you ever get the urge to just start demanding things in a big voice while waving a fist in the air and then punctuating your demands with a pounding of the nearest available surface?

just me eh?

but i never want to demand big things.

usually it's like... "i say WE TURN LEFT... NOW!" and thud the dashboard.

i think the problem is generally i'm real agreeable like. tends to actually get on the girl's, as well as other folks, nerves.

but truth be told, i guess i'm just naturally happily apathetic.

apathetic doesnt work.

it's like... where do i want to go to eat? hell, i can eat anything anywhere...

wink wink nudge nudge...

so if you're a picky eater, i'm going to let you decided where we're having lunch.

i can get along most anywhere. works better if i'm within a seeing distance of a friend, though.

i dont like being dragged places and left there while you or you or you go off.

unless, of course, you've sat me in a colorful corner, and then i'm all about the shiny objects.

i get fixated sometimes easily.

then again, i can fall out of fixation easily (usually) too.

hey. im in a good mood.

quick: how many fingers am i holding up?

HA! fooled you... wasnt holding up any.

whooo boy.

can you tell i didnt get much sleep?

well, can you?

oh, yeah, something that pissed(s) me off but i cant do anything about, right?

well. i'm not as pissed off right now as i have been about it.

see, ive got this friend who... i dont know. i dont mind being made fun of, hell, i encourage it.

but she... i dont know. she takes it too far.

and if i go half the distance she does she gets up and leaves.

and i'm left being the one that apologizes.

just cause im that kind of kid.

and i always wonder if she's being true to herself.

i feel, at times, that she's forming herself into the company she keeps (read that as people she thinks will accept her).

and this, above all else pisses me off.

it pisses me off that she feels like she has to be this way. she's a damn beautiful person, if she'd only realize that.

and i'm pissed that "society" or whatever you want to insert into that " " makes her feel this way.

right now she's "not speaking" to me. i made a joke that hit a soft spot.

i'm an ass, i knew it might hit a soft spot. i said it anyway.

shes pulled this not speaking to me stint before. i charm her out of it eventually.

charm, and the fact no one else will allow her to call them whatever she pleases.

and you know what?

we're actually really good friends. she knows me pretty well, and it's mutual.

ive never actually told her it's bothered me, though.

maybe i should eh?