which will be weird. but good. and im not sure what all will happen, there.

if i had my way, it would be the start of her mom getting to try to know me some.

i want to offer an open invitation to dinner to her. i want to take her out and talk to her, show her i'm not half bad.

i'm not perfect, by any means, and i'll never be the one she wants kim to be with, but maybe she could finally see i would never, intentionally, hurt her.

but i'm fairly sure it wont turn out that way. kim's mom will continue to ignore me. i'll continue to be "that person." because i dont have a name, you see.

but there's always maybe.

which i'll keep holding on to.

i really want to see kim's sister and brother grow up. i want to be a part of their lives. i want to give them christmas gifts.

her youngest sister's about 3, her brother is 3 months old.

i want to see them graduate high school.

i want to spend a christmas at kim's mom's house. i want her mom to go out of her way to cook me something vegetarian.

hope hope hope.