i am sleepy.

diaryland, 2000 has been good to me. sure, ive cried a little, i'll admit it.

but you would cry, too, if you ran out of peanut butter!

no, in all seriousness, ive had some bad moments.

but i tell you the good always outweigh the bad. always.

i made her laugh.

i made others laugh.

i made myself laugh.

i thought. i grew. i felt.

im still around and kicking.

i wrote. i loved.

i love.

i dont do resolutions yo. never have never will.

although i will admit when i start to change, or when i start to reveal information, major information, its usually around new years. eg i told the girl i had a crush on her... 11 days ago.

my back is really itchy right now. i think im having a minor allergic reaction to something around her, because ive been itchy for a few days now.

but dont tell anyone. please.

theyll just worry.

ive been through a lot this year yo. i do feel older.

old old old.

i wrote an email to the girl a few days back. talking about how i didnt feel like a kid anymore, and how that was killing me, because i worked so damn hard to regain that wonder.

and i realize, now, that i wont ever lose that wonder. at least, i pray i dont. that wonder, that belief in magic, will always stay.

i might not be as innocent as i once was, but that just means im learning. and if im learning, im becoming stronger. and if im becoming stronger, im getting closer to realizing the goals i want to accomplish.

and the major goal of my life is to make people happy, yo.

if, by the time i die, i can make someone say i made them incredibly happy for a few brief moments, then ive done some good.

but if i can make them say that i showed them how to be happy on their own, ive done my job.

yes yes yes. i need to be shipping on out diaryland.

to do what, im still not sure. but at least ill be doing eh.

indeed.