early today i was damn attracted to this girl.

damn attracted. she was laughing, got me to smile, had her hair pulled back, fast and easy smile.

and much earlier before that a woman looked at me like i was an idiot.

so yeah.

my boss came in today. first time in a few weeks ive seen her.

at least, as ive worked. ive seen her outside of work a few times.

but she came in and went straight to the back and didnt say hello.

which was kind of odd but i hunched over my work like i was really doing something or other.

but then two phone calls came in, at the same time, and she got them both.

and she started crying.

but holding it back, whispering, so i wouldnt hear.

but i did.

i dont know what she was crying over, or about.

a few minutes later a guy came in and went to the back and they went around front and i saw her eyes... puffy and red and almost watery.

then they went to the other back and for a long while i heard low murmurs and low murmurs with tightness in them.

i dont know when she left.

but she left with him.

and i wanted to give her a hug. but that would've been weird.

i just dont know what to do when people i semi-know are crying, and they don't want me to know.

i had a decent lunch. fruit salad and a cheeseburger.

and now im trying to plan out dinner.

or, at least, an after lunch snack.

i want to take my sister out, again, tonight. i miss the kid and last week only made me realize this even more.

thirty five minutes till work is out.

oh, a girl i'm moderate friends with told me, this week, that i was put down on earth to make her laugh.

HIT ME BABY ONE MORE TIME!

thats that damn video!

ha!